The key is to trust Jesus' hand in everything. Even Jesus showed different emotions in different situations. However, it's okay to be upset sometimes. That optimism is the only acceptable reaction for a Christian to have. Sometimes people assume that Christians aren't allowed to be upset or disappointed. Though I tried to respond optimistically to the day's trivial letdowns, like plans with my mom falling through, by the time it came to being laid off from my job due to slow business, a positive outlook was nowhere in sight. Well, for me, today was one of those days. Have you ever had a day that just completely blindsided you? Maybe you woke up hoping the day would bring fun memories or long-awaited relaxation time, but it quickly spiraled out of control. Even if it's not grades you prioritize, I believe that God wants us to put Him first above all things. If you can relate to my story in any way, I encourage you to do the same. From now on, neither grades nor anything else in my life will outrank God. I know it might seem scary to forfeit school time for God when need be, but when you maintain a broader perspective on the purpose of life, it seems a lot more reasonable. So, rather than endure another two years of constant worry, I'm going to put God above my grades (and everything else in my life). God has a funny way of showing us He's always right, even we're determined our way is best. Because after I'm through stressing about something that is clearly in God's control, not mine, I'll have no choice but to rely on God to calm my fears. To be honest, that's probably why God is allowing me to sit here panicking about my GPA. By putting God at the bottom of my list of priorities, I've shown him that my relationship with Him isn't as important as everything else in my life. And while I'm sure God wants me to try my best at school, he definitely doesn't want to be second best in my life. In fact, I put off going to youth group this semester so I could do my homework. Ive placed them before everything, including God. And it's only now that I'm beginning to realize that I've made my grades an idol. This semester and countless others before I've been willing to sacrifice my health, social life, and sanity for a piece of paper that reads 4.0 or higher. And it's funny because on the outside I wonder if people think my grades come naturally. For the longest time I've chased after every A within my reach, and to be honest, I'm tired. It's something I've done since elementary school and now having just completed my sophomore year of college, I've realized it's time to stop. I'm willing to bet that some of you out there are guilty of the same thing I am: ranking yourselves based on your academic performance. I had A's before my finals but now I'm beginning to worry that I scored low on my final exams. My stomach is currently in knots as I await the posting of my final grades.
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |
AuthorWrite something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview. ArchivesCategories |